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March 8


10 (who?)
You tried to save me
But I wasn't ready

You knew the girl of Spring 2011, carefree, brave, confident
But how would you feel
For the girl
Of Winter 2011?

You cared.
She didn't know.

"No one would care if I died"
She whispered, a wordless whisper,
"I would..." He started, nervous
"I love you..."
But she ignored him.

She had suffered too much pain.

But he still tried. He loved that poor, broken girl.
And she shut him out.

Three years later,
I try,
To apologise.

To tell you,
I loved you,
But was too weak
To say it.

You haven't changed,
I have.

But some days I wonder,
Would it have been different
Had I just replied in kind?
I know this isn't my usual form
But I just had to get this out there.

There was one person who saw the change in me, and he did love me. But I never, told him I cared back. I closed him out completely and he left my life for three years because I hurt him. 

I just wanted to get an apology out there. I know you're fine now, with a strong relationship and everything, but I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being who I was.

~Alanna x
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oldtiny Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014
i guess  no one apologise for a rejection that had  happened 3 years ago, otherwise  someone  interpreted it  as a rejection for u after 3  years, agree?
oldtiny Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014
beautifull, i just dont get why u tried to apology  3 years  later!
AOnceSuicidalPoet Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2014
I have since apologised :)
DeepDark00-0 Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014
As always, well expressed.
And wow.  That takes strength.
AOnceSuicidalPoet Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2014
Thank you <3
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